2020 Medical Humanities Section Writing Award Winner – Poetry Category
Pothole or Portal
Jay Kaplan MD, FACEP
The streets of New Orleans
are known for their potholes
ever present varying in shape and depth
often not seen until too late
walking or driving along without a care
you are caught off guard
jolted
just how much injury has happened
you’ll discover that with your next move
now
you are told to stay at home
and think you might be safe
but inside you begin to recognize there are similar difficulties
internal potholes that seem to have been hidden
amidst the busy-ness and speed of everyday life
now temporarily that noise has been silenced
and you are left with the ruts in your road
and given the stress of your isolation they deepen
and become harder to see and avoid
you fall into fear
and then into anger
and then into grief
and then into regret
you’ re not good enough
you ‘re not doing enough
it’s your fault
you chose the wrong path
now
look to your left
look to your right
are you with people alongside you
arm in arm
or do you feel alone
and lonely
what can be done to transform your potholes into portals?
what I mean by this is
instead of tumbling into hurt
and having to climb out
you pass through
to a new place where you’ve not been before
where your fear becomes your nerve
and your worry becomes your hope
where that which has been holding you back
now urges you on
where the jolt is now two elbows touching
encouraging a connection that is flexible and strong even if momentary
where injury and pain are expected because you care as you do
as you stride on with humility and daring
the road remains the road
you are different
you see the difficulties as challenges
you feel the ground and do not doubt its ability to support you
you accept that with all that you are not you can still inspire
and bring hope and love to those around you
Inside this portal you will not be deterred